Waiting in the Unknown.

Let's catch up. It's officially almost 2 years later. I think that's the longest break I've ever taken from this blog. Everything happened and nothing happened all at the same time within these two years.

So here's how it's been...

2024 was a really good year besides the crazy transition to moving across the country to the southeast.

2025 is the year everything changed.

In 2025, we discovered the plans and expectations we had for where we were at in life weren't what we thought. In the fall, it became pretty clear to us that it was time to move out of what we thought would be a place we would stay for a while. We didn't see our home as our forever home, but we also didn't think it would just be for a short season either. Just as the fall turned into winter, so did doors start closing before our eyes.

2026 came around and we put our home on the market. We figured things would move quickly just like they did with our last move. Well, I'm sitting here in our home, and it's been over 80 days since we put our house on the market. Let's just say it hasn't really gone the way we thought it would with the way our house hasn't sold as quickly. It makes sense that selling a home in a rural town in this economy does take longer. Most houses in our area that are like ours can even take over 120 days on the market.

2026 came and just about everything in our lives has turned into a closed door. My life has turned into homemaking days (not complaining about that), podcasting (@sacredordinarypod on instagram), life coaching, voice memoing my friend, and just passing the time with various activities. It's crazy to think how I thought my spring would be in this new area where I get to live out the goals we have for our lives. I understand I am not the one in control, but I also know that God directs our steps. I know that many of these doors have not closed by my power. I wish I could write to you all the ways doors have closed, but they're just too personal. Even yesterday, an unexpected door closed that we hadn't even thought would close. It's almost comical at this point by how everything sort of feels like some sense of loss is attached to it. I just really hadn't expected it to be this way. My consolation is that if God didn't want us to move, He wouldn't be closing just about every single door.

I feel as if I'm just riding the next wave to whatever comes next. Everything is completely out of my control. Just like you, I have no idea what will come next, but I know that God is working behind the scenes. I have to remind myself that He is not passive nor unaware of what is going on. I have to consol myself with the truth that God knew we would be sitting here in the biggest waiting season of our lives and He isn't shocked by any of this.

There are days I wonder what is going to happen over and over again. Other days I just feel apathetic or just go with the flow. Thankfully, the southeast has turned into warm days, sunshine for the most part, and flowers in bloom. That is what keeps me going especially!

What's the point of writing this to you? I want you to know that if you're in a waiting season, it's not just you. I truly believe that when we live for God in the everyday life, He directs our steps. He guides us and gives us the wisdom to make decisions for our lives. I believe that He gives us the desires of our hearts that are aligned with what He desires for us. I don't think it's God giving us what we want like a genie in a bottle. I think when we live for Jesus, He gives us the proper desires we need to live a fulfilling life. I am not saying everything will turn out perfectly or that pain will not be apart of your story. I know that when we walk faithfully, we experience God even in the hard seasons. As C.S. Lewis famously said in The Problem of Pain, "God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world."

The same is true in Psalm 34:18 that the Lord really is near to the brokenhearted and saves those crushed in spirit. He is nearer to us in the hard and dry seasons than it may feel. I don't feel this depth with God in dry seasons. Thankfully, I know that my feelings are not always beacons of truth. It is times like these when I rely on the wisdom God has given me and the hours spent in my life reading His Word. That is when the truth I have learned really sinks in. This is the time, more than ever, to live out the truth you say you believe.

I'm not sure if 2026 is going the way you thought it would, but the good news is that God doesn't change just because our seasons do. I understand how hard seasons can be and there is no need to pretend like we handle it so perfectly either. I have wrestled with all my emotions and with God. I am thankful that God is consistent in His character even when people are not. Psalm 118:8 when it says, "It is better to take refuge in the Lord, than to trust in humans." (Read the full chapter) God does give people wisdom for us to learn from, but the best wisdom we can get is through God and in His Word.

My friend, keep going even when seasons are not what you expected them to be. I'll be right there with you even if we never meet face to face. The waiting is hard and not something we cherish most of the time. I hope we can remember that the waiting is worth it because it has to happen in order to get to where we are going next.

I have watched my peach tree out of my window change throughout the seasons. In the winter, it has brown branches. In the late winter, I see little buds forming on the branches. I noticed some branches were trying to grow where they shouldn't so I pruned them off so the tree can focus the growth where it needs to...growing upward and producing fruit. Now, in the spring, pink flowers and green leaves adorn it's branches. I know soon the fruit is coming just like it did last year. I can't wait to taste the flavor of a fresh peach with the morning dew still on it's fuzzy skin. The waiting every year is worth it for the fresh peaches on my little tree.

The waiting will be worth it...we just have to remember that during the waiting season.