Finding Confidence.

Confidence.

One word that has so many meanings. Confidence means to put your trust in someone or something. Self-confidence is being content with the person you are. The difference between the two is putting your confidence in someone or yourself. Confidence is an attribute people desire.

It's easy to think that the person you love the most is going to set you free from your inner struggles but the truth is...they are only human.

Confidence for me is relying on people to try to solve my problems for me. Confidence is also me trusting that material items will give me a temporary joy that I long for even though I know they aren't long lasting.

Self Confidence.

This is something I barely have because I doubt myself and I lack being content in who I am. I hear the Biblical truths regularly, but it's like they go in one ear and out the other. That's the case for me...I know the biblical truths I just don't apply them to my life. I could write you a novel about who you are in Christ, but somehow my mind doesn't think those truths apply to me.

Brokenness is a barrier between us and God. Deep hurts are what kindle the fire of lacking self confidence. All those wounds that aren't healed are reminders of the hurt that you are dealing with. The past hurts that you are stilll hanging onto are there because you haven't let them go. Letting go is what sets you FREE. You'll never be confident in who God made if you're too busy holding on to the you, you used to be. Let go of the hurts and give them to God. Once you let go of the past you will finally be able to focus on the now. The now is where God has placed you. Take a few minutes to think about who you are. Are you happy about yourself? Are you content right where God has you? After that look in the mirror. What do you see? If the first thought that came to mind something like the word,"imperfections" then just breathe for a little. Those breaths you are taking right now are signs of PURPOSE. Put your hand over your heart. Feel that? Yeah, that's a heart beat which is a sign of LIFE. Life that is meant to be living. Life that is so precious. If you're spending all this time beating yourself up how will you ever finally discover the person God has made you to be?

I probably spend most of my brain power beating myself up or thinking thoughts that do not bear fruit. Good thoughts do not exist if the brain is producing bad thoughts at a fast rate. Tell yourself you are confident everyday even if you do not believe it. Eventually all those positive thoughts will start to become natural. When Light enters your life there will be no room for darkness.

I struggle with finding myself beautiful with just the way God made me. I probably zoom in on every post I post on Instagram. Then I worry if someone saw that picture that made me look overweight or blemish on my face. I rarely ever leave the house without makeup. I have believed the lie that I am only beautiful if I put on a mask. I cover up behind makeup and behind a personality that I sometimes do not even recognize. I desire to have my social media to make me look perfect because at least somewhere in my life I can look like I have it all together. Self confidence is important when we place our confidence in Our Creator. Having confidence because of material things you'll never be ever to have peace. You'll always be searching for more.

The funny thing is, all these things I see about myself are just all made up in my head because we are all our worst critics. Give yourself grace just like Jesus does for you daily.

God is the only ONE who can satisfy you, give you true confidence, and help you see your beauty for just how you are. Take a break from social media and the mirror. Speak words of truth over yourself and believe them. Be confident because of all the truth God says about you. Be confident that God will get you through anything. Be confident that letting go will set you free. Be confident because that's how you start putting God first instead of dwelling on all the things you say you aren't.